Outside Fear Trauma

 I've always been afraid of what others think of me. 

One of my biggest memories of why I think this is was about 5/6 grade. I was EXTREMELY tired one morning and DID NOT wanna get up/dressed/go to school. After arguing (read: yelling at me and not getting an acceptable response) with me, my mom finally said "Alright, then you're going to school like that." She promptly threw me outside and locked the door. 

I slept in only underwear, so I was essentially naked. I wasn't too 'OooOoOoOoo' about nakedness but I knew it was taboo and people could be watching me from around the neighborhood. So my Autistic self, in absolute fear starting screaming. Classic "child screaming at the top of their lungs fear" sound. Just begging my mom to let me back in the house instead of being trapped outside naked.

She eventually relented once she thought I'd learned my lesson. Now I'm terrified of going outside because what might the neighbors be thinking of me?